Brace yourselves. The 600 lb. gorilla has entered the room. The Iowa caucuses are tomorrow.
After all the fuss of the candidates' debates over the past few months, it's hard to remember that we are at the threshold of the parts of the presidential race which count.
I'm already weary of it. It's a long way to November 8th.
Sunday, January 31, 2016
Saturday, January 23, 2016
Loops & Boomerangs, Jedi & Trogs: Thoughts of a Freeway Flyer
Inservice training week is over. Convocation came and went. And I can breathe somewhat easier now that
all my scheduled classes are a go for Spring semester. Now all there is is the nervous anticipation of
what to expect when I return to work on Monday.
The latter part of the semester break found
me in a kind of groove. (A groove for me
is like a rut, just not as dismal.)
We’ve had a let-up from the constant snow we experienced since before Thanksgiving,
and the sunlight through the windows has been a most welcome sight. I’ve
spent my days cooking soups and stews for sustenance and catching up on my
writing.
The past weeks have had a pleasantly monotonous
quality, the house quiet as I sit at my desk tapping away at the keyboard. When I needed company, I would play “Feel It
All Around” by Washed Out on an endless loop.
When that no longer appealed to my ears, I’d play The Beta Band’s “It’s
Not Too Beautiful” instead. Or perhaps Eric Reed’s instrumental version of
“An Englishman in New York,” interspersed with “Poinciana” by Ahmed Jamal.
I’m going to miss this peaceful
interlude. This week’s trainings
included a department meeting, where I was pleased to learn that Snowflake
College was going to tackle the problem of declining enrollment by borrowing a
page from the for-profit vocational “colleges.”
The counseling staff would plan a student’s curriculum from start to
finish with a goal of finishing up within two to four years. (We are, after all, a two-year college.)
At first, this was good news. A plan!
Administrators actually providing leadership! Why, the president had gone to the length of appointing
a task force to tackle the
challenge!
Then came the details. In order to place students on predictable
schedules, the times of day courses are to be offered will be “rationalized.” In
other words, general ed courses will be offered mainly in the morning and early
afternoon while major or career training-specific classes will be offered
primarily in the late afternoon and evening.
That didn’t faze me, until the other shoe dropped.
Paradoxically, it wasn’t the move toward
making students ready for the local workforce that was the bad news. Rather, it was the plan’s effect on the
four-year transfer students which got everyone’s attention. Permit me to set up the background: My
discipline is in the social and behavioral sciences. The “service course” my department provides
for gen ed fulfills the same transfer requirements of the state unis in our
region as a similar course in one of the humanities departments. Students may choose a two-course sequence in
the humanities or mix-and-match one course each from both departments.
The cannibalization of enrollment this
overlap already causes is a problem for my department. And for me.
Treetop, my “home” campus, which programs its own schedule, often places my section(s) on the same day and time block as the other department’s
sections. The campus administration is
quite open about its preference for the instructor of the competing course, so
I get shafted by them pretty regularly.
What I didn’t know before attending the department meeting is this is a
reflection of attitudes in Snowflake’s administration as a whole.
Matt, our chair for this academic year, a bespectacled
fellow about my own age with a dry sense of humor, explained that our
department’s offerings weren’t included in the gen ed course package planned
for the initiative. Almost in passing,
he added a colleague had mentioned that an unnamed administrator had suggested
that our department, even its gen ed course, were unnecessary and that the
humanities folks could do the job we’ve been doing.
Matt’s words were met first with disbelief,
than with a clamor to identify the administrator. Anita, our department’s only other tenured professor,
a lady with a strong personality and a well-earned reputation for getting
things done, promised she’d get to the bottom of this and raise some Cain in
the process. We part-timers murmured
among ourselves as to what the implications would actually be.
We needn’t have asked. Each of us knew the score. The existential threat for us adjuncts is now
two-fold. If the rumor is true, we won’t jockey about to
get class assignments anymore because the assignments will be nonexistent.
This isn’t what I bargained for ten years ago
when I got an out-of-the-blue email from my graduate advisor telling me
Snowflake College needed a last minute hire to teach a class. I’ve covered the good, the bad, and the ugly
of the adjunct’s life in this blog. But
it just seems the stakes for survival in this trade have gotten dicier as time
goes on.
I have my own private narrative for what I
do. As a “freeway flyer,” a part-timer
who divides his time among several campuses and institutions, I’m struck by the
variations in students and institutional cultures. I’ve even come up with a taxonomy not only
for my classes but my commutes. Days
where I start from home in Treetop, teach at one campus (or two if the evening
brings me back to home campus) are “loops.”
Days where I drive to Verdant Fields Community College, forty miles to
the east of home then double back on my tracks to teach at Snowflake’s Quartz
City campus, which is fifty miles west of home, are “boomerangs.”
Boomerangs can be particularly
stressful. Last spring I taught six
sections. Three out of four of my
instructional days were boomerangs. That
semester I drove 550 miles per week.
This semester, all my days will be loops. But that still leaves the question of the
kind of students I’ll have. All my
sections are day sections, which means even at VFCC many of them will be
traditional four-year transfer students.
Even then, I know the personality of each section will vary. The section whose students show the best attitude
and aptitude will be my “Jedi class.” (I’m
not a Star Wars fan; I just made the
label up on the spot one day and the kids were really pleased when I called
them that.) The section I find most
trying is my “Trog class.” (As in “troglodyte.” I don’t share this appellation with
them.) I’ve had very few semesters where
I haven’t had one of each.
The colleges themselves have their strong and
weak points. Snowflake pays better than
VFCC. On the whole, Snowflake students
are better prepared for college work.
Despite its large size, VFCC has a sterling support staff for adjuncts
who do their utmost every day to make sure we instructors have what we
need. The administration at VFCC is fairly
supportive of teaching staff, whereas at Snowflake, as you may have gathered
already, the higher ups tend to be autocratic.
(There are exceptions—the folks at the Quartz City campus are
wonderful.) If only I could combine the
best elements of both and eliminate the long drives, I’d be content.
In the meantime, I hope for the best even
when this is getting ever more elusive.
Now, if only that flutter in my stomach would just go away…
© 2016 The Unassuming Scholar
Wednesday, January 13, 2016
Unread Books
In August 1974, a middle aged woman named
Connie Converse packed some belongings into her Volkswagen Beetle and drove
away from her Michigan home. She has not
been seen or heard from since.
The event never made the news at the
time. Her family, which had been out of
town on vacation when Connie left, did not report her missing. She had left them letters explaining her
absence. Connie had shown signs of
discontent for a while and had hinted she might go away. There wasn’t much to hold her down anyhow. She was single, and her position as managing
editor for a prestigious academic journal had just been eliminated after it
moved its base from the University of Michigan to Yale.
Connie would have remained unknown to the
world outside her family and friends but for the discovery of a remarkable set
of artifacts. During the 1950s Connie
had tried to make a go of it in New York City as a singer-songwriter. She met with limited success. She had difficulty finding acceptance for her
music. It didn’t fit into the formulaic
pop genre of the era. The nascent Greenwich
Village folk scene favored traditional ballads and protest songs. A friend secured an appearance for Connie on
Walter Cronkite’s CBS morning show in 1954, but nothing came of it.
The friend, Gene Deitch, was an animator by
trade but his hobby was making sound recordings. And so, at Deitch’s home in Westchester
County, Connie performed her songs for posterity. They were not heard again until 2004 when
Deitch was invited to share his recordings on the public radio program Spinning on Air. Connie’s witty and personal songs touched a
nerve with the listening public. Beginning
in 2009, several editions of her compilation album How Sad, How Lovely have been released. (There are a number of postings of the album
on YouTube. Here’s one.)
Connie eventually gave up on being a
professional musician, settling into an obscure existence. (The best known member of the Converse family
was her younger brother Philip, who coauthored a seminal text in my field of
academic endeavor.) But the restlessness seems to have
remained. By any measure, Connie (née
Elizabeth) was a remarkable individual.
The daughter of a strict Baptist minister, Connie chafed at her small
town New England upbringing. Graduating
high school with top honors, she followed her mother and her grandmother before her
to Mount Holyoke College where she excelled.
After two years, she quit.
It just happened to be music where Connie
wanted to make her mark. However, she
was also a gifted painter, sculptor, and prose writer. Her lyrics give voice to the frustrations
brought on by the straitjacket of social convention inhibiting middle class
women in midcentury America. “Roving
Woman” is a particular favorite of mine.
Connie sings of going to bars alone and playing poker with men at a time
when respectable dining establishments with saloons would only seat accompanied
ladies at dinnertime. Ladies by
themselves in standalone watering holes?
Scandalous.
Connie’s private life was a mystery even to
those closest to her. Her brother Phil recalls
never meeting a boyfriend. (He conceded
in an interview before his own death that she may have been a lesbian.) Photos of Connie in her thirties portray a
slightly enigmatic figure. Bespectacled,
fair haired, she was a pretty but ordinary woman. Her expression reveals little and inspires
idle wonder rather than answers.
Aside from the accounts of the people in her
life, and the letters she sent to them when she vanished, Connie herself didn’t
say much about the mounting frustration her unmet potential caused her. In an attempt to alleviate her discontent,
family and friends pooled their money and sent Connie on a six-month sabbatical
in Britain the year before she fell out of sight. Her mother took her along on a vacation to
Alaska to help Connie snap out of her funk.
To no avail.
Connie had already lost her academic publishing career. Her doctor then delivered the news she would
have to have a hysterectomy. Brother
Philip suggested that this may have deepened her depression since it precluded
having children, though at age fifty this would have been a remote
prospect.
So wither Connie Converse? Philip believed that she was a suicide,
driving off a bridge to her death since her car was never found. (So much for the vaunted buoyancy of the
original VWs.) It does appear to be the
most satisfying explanation. Her Social
Security number has not been used since 1974 nor her death reported. No claimed sightings of her have ever been
verified. If alive, she would be ninety
years old. It’s possible, though unlikely
given that Connie was a heavy smoker and drinker.
The only parallel I can find with Connie’s
disappearance was the presumed 1955 suicide of a contemporaneous artist, the
poet, novelist, songwriter, filmmaker, and painter Weldon Kees.
Kees left his San Francisco apartment on a summer afternoon never to be
seen again. His car was found on the
north side of the Golden Gate Bridge in Marin County, keys in the
ignition. Kees, too, had been depressed
in the weeks before going missing and had spoken of wanting to kill
himself. Then again, he had also
mentioned decamping to Mexico so who knows?
No body was ever discovered, which gives us license to speculate.
My thoughts on Connie Converse? I think in her lifetime she suffered the
pains of the gifted and sensitive who go unappreciated. She was an unread book on the shelf,
gathering dust. It’s strange and poignant, though, that a true
polymath such as she should have waited forty years after her departure (real
or metaphorical) to finally be noticed by critics and a mass audience alike. We can chalk some of this up to the limits on
women her generation experienced.
Perhaps her art was simply out of synch with her times.
I find the lack of reaction to her leaving a
bit disconcerting but perhaps reasonable given she had voluntarily absented
herself. We are all at risk of falling
through the cracks despite the panopticon nature of our monitored public spaces
and the migration online of personal relationships. I’m reminded particularly of the bizarre
demise of Joyce Vincent, the woman who died suddenly in her London flat in 2003
while wrapping Christmas presents and watching TV not to be discovered for
another three years. No one seemed to
have noticed her absence. She was
estranged from her family but was an attractive, vivacious woman popular with
her co-workers. Surely she had friends
who might have checked up on her. But it was
only when her rent was sufficiently in arrears that the authorities entered the
apartment only to find Joyce’s skeletonized remains.
Joyce Vincent was yet another unread book. It's a pity there are so many, many more resting on the shelves.
© 2016 The Unassuming Scholar
Monday, January 11, 2016
Away from It All
The World’s Greatest Blog may just have
stumbled over its own mordant humor.
A colleague who rhetorically asked to be
killed because s/he didn’t have the strength left to end it all was met with a
flurry of concern that s/he might be a potential suicide.
That said, an email this morning from my
department chair announcing additional section cuts for the upcoming semester could very
well push this proffie over the edge…
Saturday, December 26, 2015
Xmas Flix
I have spent the past two weeks holed up at
home. When you live in a resort town
whose principal industry is catering to well-heeled skiers and snowboarders,
Christmas is the season for some of us to hunker down.
It hasn’t helped that it has snowed pretty
steadily; no sooner would one storm pass through then another followed. Out of curiosity I’ve been monitoring road conditions
on the state highway department’s website.
(I say “out of curiosity” because ordinarily I do so for my own safety
since I drive over mountain passes to get to work.) Despite the heavy snow and whiteout
conditions, the flatlanders were undaunted.
Over the past few days the highway patrol has been metering traffic coming
up from the foothills due to congestion.
I have ventured out exactly once since the college winter hiatus began. I was out of
liquor. True to form the supermarket was
packed with families in bulky ski outfits.
After waiting fifteen minutes in the checkout line, I was finally able
to set my items down on the conveyer.
The lady in front of me made note of my purchases—a liter of bourbon, a
liter of scotch, and two bottles of a sleep aid. Smiling, she gave me a knowing look and said,
“Family, huh?”
“Yeah, family.”
Actually, no.
In fact I’ve been dodging voicemails all week from my relatives, whom I make a
point of keeping at arm’s length. If they
were your relatives you would, too.
Needless to say, I’m not much for
Christmas. I am not a guy who decks the
halls. You won’t find a tree or a single
holiday decoration in my house. I
despise the crass commercialism of the season.
My only concession this year was to send checks to my two sons. Let ‘em do their own shopping.
There is one exception to my antipathy. There are certain films which are must-see
viewing for me this time of year. My absolute favorite is
Scrooge, the adaptation of A Christmas Carol starring Alastair
Sim. Somehow I missed that one this year. Not to worry, there are two more titles which
hold a similarly warm place in my heart.
The first is the venerable It’s a Wonderful Life. It’s kind of strange that I would have an
affinity for this kind of movie. Fantasy
stories don’t really appeal to me. The
dialogue is unbelievably corny, even for a Frank Capra film. And even as a kid I found the idea of angels,
let alone guardian angels, absurd.
No matter, I was sure to catch NBC’s
customary Christmas Eve airing. (It’s a Wonderful Life is in the public
domain which means it’s freely available online. But somehow it just feels right to watch it on TV every December 24th.) As I watched, I tried to figure out just what
it was I liked about the movie. I still
don’t have one definitive answer but I think I can pin down a few things.
Capra excelled at encapsulating classic
Americana. Bedford Falls was nothing
like the small town I grew up in. The
neighbors were much friendlier and considerate than mine. People in the movie behaved as if they lived
in a community and looked out for
each other. And what small town boy wouldn’t
have wanted to marry a girl like Mary Hatch?
(Or Donna Reed, for that matter?)
Notwithstanding the idyllic nature of the town, however, I could certainly identify with protagonist George Bailey
and his yearning to escape and see the world.
Perhaps the most compelling aspect of It’s a Wonderful Life is the David and
Goliath story of George and the Bailey family’s tiny building and loan consistently
thwarting the designs of wealthy banker Mr. Henry Potter. George was the epitome of the stammering,
sincere Everyman character James Stewart perfected. Likewise, Potter was typical of the crabby
old men Lionel Barrymore played toward the end of his career. (The wheelchair Potter occupied was a
necessity for Barrymore, who suffered from crippling arthritis.)
The symbolism of the contest of wills between
the two men is subversive in the contemporary cultural context. Potter is just the kind of individual held up
as an exemplar for today’s economic elites.
A “job creator” who treats his employees as disposable vassals, Potter
is devoid of sentimentality. His resort
to common theft to bring down his rival would nowadays be seen as a minor
peccadillo. On the other hand, George
would be held up as a poor businessman because he puts people ahead of
profit. To portray Potter as the bad guy
sets American cultural values—our actual values, not the ones we purport to
hold—on their ear.
Stripped of the spiritual mumbo-jumbo and its
over-idealized take on small town America, It’s
a Wonderful Life is an anachronism with the right message for our age. That’s why I like it so much.
My second must-see classic is a movie I’m
actually old enough to have seen in a theater during its first run. I was dragged unwillingly to see A Christmas Story as a high schooler
during a custodial visitation weekend with my father and stepmother. I was expecting a stinker, given my dad’s taste
in cinema. (He particularly loved Burt Reynolds' movies from the ‘70s and ‘80s, each of which was essentially a protracted car chase scene.) Any movie we saw also had to have a plot and
character development simple enough for my stepmother to follow. (After seeing Sophie’s Choice, she complained of not understanding what it was
about. I don’t know why dad married her,
but it certainly wasn’t for her smarts.)
Having set my expectations low, I ended up
being bowled over by A Christmas Story. It definitely helped that it was adapted from
several of Jean Shepherd’s short stories about his Indiana childhood. I’d just discovered Shep, having been
recommended to me by my English teacher, and I was already familiar with the
adaptations of the Ralph Parker stories aired on PBS’s American Playhouse back when the network
still offered a respectable volume of quality programming. (Note: Endless rebroadcasts of Downton Abbey are not an acceptable
substitute.)
More time would pass before I learned of
Shepherd’s career as a proto-hipster with a late night radio show in 1950s New
York City. Jean Shepherd’s Night People was a freeform program which garnered
a cult following among college students.
Shep would speak to his listeners as if they were discerning cultural coconspirators
against what he called “creeping Meatballism;” that is, the pervasiveness of
the prosaic tastes of the square “day people.”
Shepherd’s audience was a loyal one.
John Cassavetes’ first feature, Shadows
(1959), was financed in part by contributions from the “Night People”—an early
example of crowdfunding. Shepherd also
liked to tweak his audience’s noses now and then. After discussing a racy, albeit nonexistent
novel titled I, Libertine, on his
show there were so many inquiries about where the book could be bought that
Shepherd upped the ante by hastily writing an actual novel under the nom de plume Frederick R. Ewing. Shep’s photo, captioned as author Ewing,
adorned the dustjacket.
It is most unlikely that a program like Night People would be commercially
viable today. Even Shepherd made the
migration to public broadcasting in the 1970s.
However, much of the entertainment content on public radio, such as This American Life, The Radio Reader, or The Moth
Radio Hour, tend to speak to the interests and concerns of liberal suburbanites. It’s all good programming, but it doesn’t
take many chances. Meatballism
triumphant.
But, back to A Christmas Story. Shep is
at his best here, playing it straight. Directed
by Bob Clark, whose best known other movie was Porky’s, A Christmas Story is
a paean to childhood wonder and anticipation.
Set circa 1940 in northern Indiana, nine year old Ralphie Parker (Peter
Billingsley) lives with his father, The Old Man (Darren McGavin), his mom
(Melinda Dillon), and his whiny younger brother Randy (Ian Petrella). The voiceover narration is provided by
Ralphie as an Adult (Shep Himself).
The plot is episodic. The A-plot chronicles Ralphie’s dogged quest
to receive a Red Ryder BB gun as a present.
At every turn, Ralphie is discouraged with the warning, “You’ll shoot
your eye out!” by everyone from Mom to his teacher to the department store Santa. But family comedies must have happy endings,
and we learn at the end that The Old Man came through for Ralphie with a
surprise extra gift Christmas morning.
A
Christmas Story works because it’s relatable,
showcasing Shepherd’s talent for wringing humor from the most ordinary
childhood and family experiences.
(Paradoxically, Shep wasn’t much of a family man. He was married four times that we know of,
and he never bothered with his children again after he left them and their
mother.) Everything from Ralphie’s
friendship with Flick and Schwartz (recurring characters in the Ralph stories)
to dealing with bullies Scut Farkus and Grover Dill to the discovery your
favorite programs are just vehicles to sell stuff are all familiar
notwithstanding the retro setting of the film.
The B-plots are gems in themselves. The Old Man wins a “major award” for solving
crossword puzzles, which turns out to be a lamp in the shape of a woman’s leg
clad in a fishnet stocking with a lampshade as a skirt. Mom disapproves and the major award is shattered
when it “accidentally” falls to the floor.
Ralphie sends off for a Little Orphan Annie decoder ring which turns out
to decode nothing but radio ads for Ovaltine.
Ralphie rats out his pal Schwartz when he utters the F-word after a
mishap helping The Old Man change a flat tire.
Christmas dinner is ruined when the neighboring Bumpus hounds enter the
Parker kitchen and tear apart the unattended turkey.
I don’t think I really expected A Christmas Story to become a holiday
perennial, but it’s easy to understand why it’s stood the test of time. It’s certainly the best known of Jean
Shepherd’s works among the general public.
And it’s a damned shame his other
writings and broadcast work have kind of fallen into obscurity since Shep died
in 1999. But then, Shepherd never held
himself out as an artist for the masses.
The definition of hipness is fluid and ever changing. So there is the probability that Shepherd’s
humor doesn’t translate well anymore.
I have my fingers crossed for a revival
notwithstanding. And in the meantime, we’ll
always have A Christmas Story. Particularly when TBS airs it repeatedly every
Christmas Day.
© 2015 The Unassuming Scholar
Sunday, December 20, 2015
Here...then Gone...then Back Again (Or, The Neverending Saga of The Miz)
Well, that was…brief.
Just weeks after I hailed the latest successor
to the World’s Greatest Blog, the Academic Mizery Machine, it's gone dark. By “dark,” I don’t mean that the site is no
longer active. I mean that the latest
Miz has been taken down from Blogger altogether. Dark. Pfffft.
Gone.
However, there’s no need for despair. After some drama involving the last site's moderator and a troll or two, yet another doughty colleague has undertaken to resume the Misery at the old address.
Enjoy!
Thursday, December 17, 2015
Midyear Postmortem
It’s over.
Final grades are in. Fall
semester is complete.
All told, it was one of my better semesters
of late. (I’ve probably jinxed myself by
writing this; now some disgruntled student will crawl from the woodwork to jam
me up.) All but one of my five sections
had their fair share of engaged learners. I’m
guessing this is because most of them met in the morning or early afternoon,
though my one evening section was okay too. The outlier was my Monday-Wednesday
midafternoon section, which had comparatively low enrollment and contained the
typical listless lot of “traditional” community college students.
A couple of my classes were pleasant
surprises. When I discovered both
contained a large percentage of early-college program high school kids I felt a
sense of trepidation if not dread. My fears were misplaced, though the
character of each section differed. The
first was kind of rambunctious since
most of them sat together. Nevertheless,
they managed to endear themselves to me as the weeks passed despite my normal curmudgeonly
dislike of teenagers. It was kind of
like the college gave me a box of puppies for the semester. The youngsters in
the second section were somewhat more restrained but were pleasant company for
the most part.
I kept reminding myself to enjoy what I could
while it lasted. I am now facing what
may well be a protracted decline in my professional and personal lives. Next semester I’m teaching a reduced schedule
with a strong possibility that at least one section won’t “make”
(enrollment).
There are other factors contributing to my
low mood this week. Just after
Thanksgiving an administrative assistant whom I worked with for years passed
away suddenly, the second death of a friend and coworker in three months. A series of snowstorms has brought hope for
an end to a multiyear drought where I live, but the cold and the absence of
sunlight is wearing on me. Things
continue to break around the house but I don’t feel sufficiently motivated to
fix them. I’m sleeping a lot but don’t
feel rested when I’m awake. I’m still
dealing with the myriad minor afflictions that have bothered me for more than a
year. A few weeks ago it turned out that
the malaise I was feeling for a spell last July and August may have been the
product of a periodontal infection the damage from which required oral surgery
to repair. (Apologies for the TMI.)
There are reasons for me to be cheerful, though. I’ve landed a summer school assignment for
next year. I’ve had one conference paper
accepted for the spring, and a decision is pending on another one for a conference
in June. Best of all, I received an
invitation from out of the blue to participate in a colloquium in South Africa this
summer. (Our summer, not theirs.) It’s a long trip to be sure, and an expensive
one, but there is a good chance that it will lead to my first ever peer-reviewed
journal article. Quite the feather in my cap if I pull it off.
Then again, nothing I do seems to impress my
bosses. Teaching awards, better than
average student ratings, acing my classroom teaching evaluation, active
participation in academic conferences, publishing a journal article, doesn’t
matter. I draw dog sections which can
never attract high enough enrollment to avoid cancellation, I’m rebuked for minor
complaints from students in the wrong, and the administration brings in
additional instructors who are given classes which used to be mine.
I’m not the only one. During the semester I struck up a friendship
with a new adjunct prof who, like me, came to academia in middle age. Despite rave reviews from colleagues and
students alike, she was passed over for a temporary full time position and
given a reduced schedule in the spring to boot.
Needless to say when she told me
about this she was quietly seething. There
was a silver lining, though. Her thesis
advisor from graduate school invited her to teach at his institution where I’m
sure she’ll knock ‘em dead.
It’s nice to have choices. Another adjunct I’ve long considered a rival
confided in me a while back that he was planning to go back to school for his
doctorate or to earn a K-12 credential.
Being part-time faculty was too hit-or-miss, he told me. Yeah, it is that.
Unfortunately I’m too old to make a go at a
new career. Opportunities for men over
forty are limited. I still have a son in
school, so (voluntary) retirement is not an option. Most importantly, remaining in academia for
me is worth fighting for. It’s the third
career I’ve followed in my lifetime and, notwithstanding the barrage of complaints I have
posted on this blog over the years, it’s the only one I’ve loved. And notwithstanding my position on the lowest
rung of the professional ladder, I have not received as much respect in the
community as I have as a teacher and academic.
It would be very painful to walk away from that.
At least for the next couple of weeks I will
be spared the possibility of further bad news since campus will shut down for the
holiday break. (I’ve never been into
Christmas very much, but this year I’ve barely noticed its impossible to miss
trappings.) I didn’t plan my usual post-semester
vacation in a balmy clime this year, but maybe I’ll treat myself to a few days
in Vegas instead. After all, no place on
the planet is farther removed from daily reality.
And who knows? Maybe I’ll get lucky.
© 2015 The Unassuming Scholar
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